The crisis counselor said that often suicidal people make plans, and that things may seem a lot better right before it happens, because they have made that decision. They are at peace, the end is in sight. I didn’t believe it, but I do now. I think maybe he decided Wednesday night after we talked. […]
How Long Did He Know? Read More ยป
Chris was a man who loved his family, and needed us desperately. He came from a horrible childhood, including homelessness, alcoholism, and every abuse known to children. Judge that if you want, dismiss him if you want. You can slap label after label on him and on our relationship, but you will not diminish what
By the clock, it’s morning. There was a time when I only saw five a.m. from the other end–as in, “Gee, I’m up late tonight.” But my daughter is a morning person, so that hasn’t been true for some time. I’m here. My head is still pounding. I accidentally made a full pot of coffee,
Morning, Day Three Read More ยป
I’m alone, and now I don’t want to be. All day I’ve hidden here, at my computer, and now I want to talk, but it’s almost eleven. I could wake up a friend. I have good ones, not a one would object, or even silently resent. But I can’t bring myself to do it. How
Another long and not very productive day. The lady who was supposed to adopt our rats did not come, and I can’t find where I wrote her phone number. I was late to work because I had no energy to make the munchkin get ready this morning. I took lunch to get my hubby’s living
To quote my daughter, “I’m getting really freaked out here.” It’s late. It’s quiet. Except for my dog, going nuts at things I don’t hear. And the occasional rattle and thump on the roof. Cats, I tell myself. They climb the tree and chase each other on the roof. But I’ve seen Signs. And my
Anybody Else See "Signs"? Read More ยป
Actually, yes, there is progress. One, and most important, I’m down to 693 pages. Yay! All that hard work is paying off… Two, it has been decided that I don’t need to move yet. The powers that be have decided that maybe it wouldn’t be in the best interests of my daughter to make me
Progress? Who, Me? Read More ยป